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[16 Dec 2004|11:25pm] |
yeah, i know its been a while. right now, im at my cousins house in nc. im posting now only because i've been wanting to put these lyrics up. i've found that the more that i listen to the words of this song, the more true they become to my life, in one way or another. that and i've just needed to vent. im not going to now. and when i do, im not going to totally vent because i cant. too much of it is just my stupid mind thinking too much, and i know that it is, but i dont know how to stop it from doing it. if i did, it wouldnt be an issue, but it always has, and it costs me frequently. too many times have i thought too much, and gone too far because of it, and while it hasnt neccessarily cost me friends, it has changed the closeness of some friendships. which is part of the problem now. i fear thats whats happened, and i dont know to do. i had a friend that i thought was very close, that i could tell anything to, and they would talk to me about just about anything as well. well, more and more recently, we've talked less and less and part of it has been lack of time, but my stupid brain tells me that the person has kinda been avoiding me. i dont know how founded this is, but thats what my brain tells me and i cant get it to shut off. it says that i did something stupid and now they dont want to talk to me. right now, i havent talked to the person at all in an actual two sided conversation in over a week. and normally, i talk to this person atleast once a week, probably closer to once every couple of days. one person told me, "dont put more into a friendship than what the other person is willing to match." in other words, if you call, and they say they will call back and they dont, dont go out of your way to call the person. seems like simple advice, but for me its not. i love to talk, as my rambling shows, and with the person, i would do anything for them, and i hope they know it, but it seems more and more like they dont care. once again, probably my stupid brain not shutting up like it needs to, but still, thats what it says. anyways, as much as i would like to, i just cant up and stop putting effort into talking to a person, especially someone that i care for, that i can put my full trust in. anyways, all my futile attempts to talk to the person in the last week have failed miserably, and im still waiting for a return call, or text message or something. anways, here comes the song lyrics.
its from barenaked ladies
I'm so cool, too bad I'm a loser
I'm so smart, too bad I can't get anything figured out
I'm so brave, too bad I'm a baby
I'm so fly, that's probably why it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
I'm so green, it's really amazing
I'm so clean, too bad I can't get all the dirt off of me.
I'm so sane, it's driving me crazy
It's so strange, I can't believe it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
I'm so chill, no wonder it's freezing
I'm so still, I just can't keep my fingers out of anything
I'm so thrilled to finally be failing
I'm so done, turn me over cause it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
Anything plain can be lovely, anything loved can be lost
Maybe I lost my direction, what if our love is the cost?
Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind
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| at the snack bar getting popcorn chicken |
[28 Nov 2004|11:48pm] |
here ya go, enjoy! my results are remarkably correct, well, i dont know about the alcohol but the rest seem to be correct.
you know this thing changes is you type things in differenly?
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| seventh frame, yeah, a strike |
[15 Nov 2004|01:14am] |
so today was our last performance of Godspell. it went pretty good. i had a few friends at this
performance that you all may know. Jason hamrick and nicole meyer came (from 412 and kings and
everywhere else i know them from) and amanda came with her mom. i still have to say though, the best
audience had to be saturday afternoon. it could be that that was the performance that i knew the most
people at, or something, i dont know. but saturday afternoon was the most responsive audience that we
had. ok so yeah, thats over. i have theory work i need to do, but im tired and i know there's not a
chance that i will finish it, so im gonna post and go to bed. i might get up early enough to get some of
it done in the morning, but we'll see. anyways, that's the end of my post. plays over, now my knees and
every other joint in my body can heal. (especially my left arm. getting thrown off the stairs has taken
its toll on me) gnight!
justin
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| fifth and sixth frames, pocket strikes (those are the pretty ones that make a lot of noise) |
[13 Nov 2004|02:29am] |
ok, so yeah, i just got done reading a bunch of stuff. (peoples posts, peoples comments on mine) and i had a good day. so im doing pretty good. just remember, the pasta needs love too! (inside joke, and dont spoil it by telling!)i didnt have to wake up until late today, but i woke up at 930 anyways, because 1)sunlight flooded into my room around 7 and didnt go away. and 2)i really wanted to go to lunch with a friend of mine, but she woke up late (which is ok because i woke her up by calling her at two and she didnt even remember talking to me, she thought she dreamed it)but i stayed up and watched an old sci fi series called roar that has a young heath ledger in it (for you lady fans...and freddy) and then around 4 i was gonna get ready and leave by 430 so i could go into brandon to see amanda and give her tickets for the play, and my dad comes inside and says (i hate to be the bearer of bad news but your right rear tire is flat, and barely has enough for you to get onto the driveway to change it) so, i go to take care of that and he said something about getting my other tire from the garage (i have a spare real tire so that i can ride around on that and procrastinate about getting tires fixed) and i was all like, dont need it, im gonna repair this one. thats right ladies and gentlemen, i fixed the tire. i cant patch tires because i dont have the gunk to reseal the tire with, but i can patch a tire like there's no tomorrow. it took me almost an hour because of gettin the tire pumped back up, but now counting that, it took like 40 minutes. i've had to change so many on that car that i can get the car jacked, the tire switched, and the car back on the ground in about 15 minutes, maybe twenty depending on how tight the lugnuts are on the tires. so yeah, didnt make it into brandon, but thats ok, because i left for the play at like 5, and went by subway and got a chicken/bacon wrap (goodness) and pringles, and white chocolate macadamian nut cookies!it was great that, and the play went super awesome! i just have to think of more things to do during my song.then, after the play, i went and met up with amanda at novemberfest, and i rode the gravitron, and then got free cotton candy! i love cotton candy! and it was free! yeah, monica and whoever the guy was are my new favorite people i know at nativity that are in the youth group. anyways, so yeah, went and did that until like 12, then drove home and on the way, stopped by steak and shake because micah and betty(people who are in the play) were still there, so i stopped in and said hey, and stayed until like 120, then came home and was like crap! amanda said for me to get online when i got home so i apologized to her and she was like, oh, ok. but! the part that makes it two frames of strikes...1)the play, 2) the stuff i read in my lj comments and what a dear friend wrote in their lj thingy. well, what they wrote may not seem like much to others, but to me it meant the world. that and dani. dani almost always makes me feel better. i get to see her and freddy tomorrow. btw, when you said hte things about the best friends dani? did you mean the guy best friends or the girl best friends? anyways, yeah, to clarify things incase they werent. i am in no way looking for a dating relationship or anything near it. my pact with GOd was, he'll send me someone when im where i need to be to receive them. because its no good to ship a package to brandon when the person receiving it hasnt changed their address to brandon yet. or something like that. my big thing is still spending time with the people i care about. i dont get to do that much so when i do, i really enjoy it. my friends that i see at 412, it may seem like i take you for granted because i never mention you, same with my friends from kings and everywhere else, but i dont. i appreciate everything you all do for me. thank you yoon and mark for your words too. in fact, i might talk to one of you sunday, i dont know. right now the issue doesnt seem to be bothering me much. well, one of them isnt. right now the confusion has left me, but thats partially because i tuned it out. the less you tune your ears into it, the less you can understand of it. so if you dont think about the thing thats confusing you, it cant confuse you! flawless logic right there baby. ok, maybe not, but thats not the point. anyways, yeah, so two strikes in one post! thats impressive! if i post every day of the play, i will probably have a five bagger by the end of it (if im lucky, these lane conditions have been known to be pretty harsh, and they change often)
anways,
pease mount and sugarloaf the bonzi juice
§Öç¤justin¤çÖ§
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| fourth frame, three, then gutter to the same place i threw the first ball |
[09 Nov 2004|12:04am] |
my heart and my head are being torn into completely different directions it seems lately. my head keeps telling me things like, you need to find someone to go out with, you need to go and date. but my heart keeps telling me, you made a deal with God, and he's doing his part. you want a relationship? you do your part. and it stinks at times, because i really do want to do my part, but im so used to not doing it, its hard to get into it, and i dont have any support that i know of. my brother would be my support, but i dont feel comfortable opening up to him. my two best guy friends, i would just feel weird confiding in because of how much of a long standing issue this is, and the fact that i've never asked either of them for help before. and while i could talk to one of my or both of my two best friends that are girls, one, i never could be very specific about personal spiritual issues about myself to girls, and two, talking to girls about your inner problems has a tendancy to make them see you differently and conversely, treat you differently, and i absolutely love the relationships i have with the two of them right now. one of my biggest struggles now though, is my loneliness. in talking with one of the girls, she put it best when she said, you're starved for affection. and its true, i am. thats why i find myself flirting so much without a thought of how it makes me look as a christian, or how it makes the other person feel.i also when i do that, focus on the people that i think could posssible give me what i think i want, when i want it. (in other words, girls that arent christian, and would have no problem with just hooking up for a night and making out) the good part in this is that God has been faithful in his part of the deal, and every attempt i have made, whether for a makeout partner, or to go on a date with a great girl, (the kind i need to be searching after) has fallen through without a second thought. but still a huge part of me is lonely and longs to be comforted. not even by someone that im dating, just someone that i care about. see, to me, dating is stupid. why put the label dating on it? to me, dating is the same as going out with one of your friends. the only difference is the context in which people do it, and what they do on dates. well, if you want to know what dating is to me. 1)dating is just like friendship, except with hand holding, and maybe some kissing, and extended hugs. 2)you date to learn more about a person, well, for me, its spending time with the person because i only would date people i am already friends with, so therefore, i would mainly be seeing what they are like in different places (which is nothing i couldnt figure out by going to the same place as friends) so dating really isnt useful unless its with the one you think you may want to marry. 3)dating leads too easily into getting into trouble with yourself, the other person, and God. plus, you have to remember that anything you give away while dating (your heart, physical things, secrets about yourself) are things that you can never get back, and are never the same when you go to give them to the one you marry. 4) in the long run of dating, someone 9 out of 10 times, gets hurt, whether it seems like it or not. from personal experiance, i hate being in both positions, whether i be the one that hurts, or gets hurt. and believe it or not, i prefer to be the one that gets hurt. because that way, atleast i know that i can do something about it. 5)dating changes how we view people whether for the good or the bad, it changes a lot of things. sometimes you learn about habits other people have that you wouldnt know just by being friends. that being because a lot of time, you spend more time with the person you're dating than you would if you wre just friends. anyways, the list could go on, but for now it wont. needless to say, i dont date, and i wont until i feel that GOd has given me a person he wants me to be with. the only bad part about that is the fact that there's one person i could probably be happy with, but i wont know until i do my part, and hopefully that wont be too late for me.
going on as to why this is a 3 miss day. i hate when my friends are sad. i hate even more when i have to sit watching from the sidelines because there's nothing that i can do. i've finally, after many years, gotten to the point where i try my very hardest to not push a person to talk to me, and just let them come to me when they want to or need to. which for me is very hard, because the less i know, the less i can do, and the more useless i feel. i feel that if i cant do something for a friend (whether its needed or just me imagining it) when they're hurt, or upset, or sad, or anything, im not doing my part as a friend, and i hate it.
if you havent realized, i have self esteem and self worth issues. i've had them a long time and a lot of it spurs from my family life. i have an older brother and when he makes mistakes its always, well we understand, dont do it again. when i make mistakes its always been, punishment punishment, you should have learned from your brother. what parent fail to realize is that some mistakes have to be made to learn anything. if we all are supposed to learn from example and not from our own mistakes, the world would have corrected the whole problem of sin by now. anyways, compile that with always being expected to make a's and b's because my brother did, and never being told good job. (you know, i noticed in highschool that my dad always told my brother good job when he got his report card, and never said anything to me. my mom would say something occasionally [if i was in the room when she looked atthe reportcards] so one time i put my report card on top of my brothers, he had 2 a's and 2 b's, i had straight a's. i was on the couch watching tv, my brother was eating, and my dad had the audacity to grab my report card, lift it up and look at my brothers, and tell him good job, without a single mention of my grades. yeah, that makes you feel loved! [and my dad wonders why i love him but dont respect him or talk to him much]) just a constant battle with things being forgotten, and issues with people i went to school with over the years. i was always the average kid, because there was always someone smarter, faster, more athletic. the only time that wasnt true was in middle school when i played trumpet. i was the best trumpet player. the class knew it, the teacher knew it, and i was stuck playing 2nd or third trumpet in 6th and 7th grade because we did chair position by "pass offs" or little snippets of music that we played for a grade. well, the only time i had to do them was in class because my mom worked and i couldnt stay later. and two of the people in the trumpet section, who werent that good, got to be first and second chair because they were able to stay later and do passoffs and get ahead while the rest of us had to do it in class time. but then in 8th grade i got to *(not literally) kick her in the teeth, because he stopped doing chairs by passoffs and started doing them by talent, and i stayed at first chair all of my either grade year. the only time i played something other than first, was when i volunteered to. that, and i learned how to play pretty much every brass instrument in band. i was one of two people in the band that could play french horn, and i learned that in less than a week.so that was one time that i really felt accepted. really, music related things are when i feel the most accepted. anyways, this is a really long post, so i'll stop for now. i might ramble later. wait, might? lol, yall should know me better than that by now.
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| third frame, strike! fo sure |
[09 Nov 2004|12:01am] |
ok, so, to continue the story, well, actually, i dont think i will yet, because first off, i have stuff that i have to get off of my mind (and out of my heart) and two, i didnt get a single comment about the first part of the story so i dont really know who's read any of it. but fo those of you who have, you better comment if you want me to continue. i already have a set number of comments that i have to have to continue the story, and remember, you people never comment, so i could hold out for a while just tomake up for all the times that no one comments. you never know, or i could be content with one!?! its crazynes i tell you anyways, time to move on to the next frame, because it definitely isnt a strike!
justin
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| second frame seven and a miss |
[03 Nov 2004|01:28am] |
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yeah, only seven and a miss. would be a little higher, but for some reason, im just not feeling it. i did however get to spend the last two and some odd minutes talking to one of my good friends. lol, her attention kept getting pulled away, but i forgive her. she was talking to her best friend thats in the service right now, and another person she has been wanting to talk things out with for a while. so it was completely understandable. but next time, there shall be no interruptions! JUSTIN HAS SPOKEN!
so yeah, apparently no one else is going to tell about the adventures of TERRORIST BROWN AND HIS BAND OF AMERICAN MISFITS. ok heres how it goes.
the 24th freddy says, oh yeah, we're having a party at my house for halloween. im like ok. supposed to be his friends and his sisters friends. he said something to sis after church, she's all, im not gonna be there. and he's like, the point of the party was for you to stay home! lol, it was great. anyways, that drops it to freddys friends. well, freddy didnt advertize, so it was gonna be me and him. ended up dani came along, which was fine, but she needs to recognize and quit cuttin in to all my freddy time. JUSTIN HAS SPOKEN. naw, i dont mind, she helps keep us out of trouble. anyways, i call freddy sunday afternoon and asked what i needed to bring. he said nothing, so i suggested my ps2 games. (mk6:deception, soul calibur 2, marvel vs capcom 2, tekken 4, ddr 2). he said sure. and i said, well, you want me to bring my fireworks (i have a lot left over from the 4th/july) he said sure, i sais where we shoot them from. he said, the track. i say, at the school? hes all like yeah, so i said ok.
skip the part about the picnic, the beating freddy and danielle for their non superiorness in relation to how super superior excellent i am, the mall, danis dad making us eat green beans(raw) lol, i didnt do it. freddy you're a sucker. im just disobediant. we get to freddy's house, the tv we were gonna play on is busted, sowe cant play beat up theother player games, or dance until you pass out. so we sit around until sometime. i go in the living room and watch the rest of austin powers 2, and then we go to the blowing up of things (lol literally in some cases). we hop the fence behind his house (me wearing a cloak and combat boots, dani wearing flip flops), walk around the retention pond, and jump another fence onto the track.
we launch off rocket after rocket, and a few roman candles. a lot of the ones i stuck in the ground stayed at ground level, which was stupid because i would stick them in, then pull them out to make sure that they didnt get stuck, but they still did. funniest part, freddy takes on of the two big ones i had.(like an inch in diameter and about 5 inches long [just the rocket part, not the stick]) sticks it in the ground and lights it. ok, we back up a little (about 8 feet) because we're not totally without common sense. the fuse goes up without a problem, then BOOM! it doesnt try to fly up, it doesnt spout out of the top like they're supposed to. it just blows up at ground level, and sends flying pieces of whatever all around us. that was fun. well, freddy picked up another one that was called a gator tail, and when it went off, it made a high pitched sound as it went up into the air, like a saturn missile battery if there was only one of them. we all laugh, we've been out there about 30-40 minutes at this point. we keep having our fun, a few minutes later (maybe five or ten minutes) freddy launches off another one. (whistler) not five minutes after that, freddy is shootin off a roman candle, and his mom calls his phone. danielle is laying down (still [thats all she did pretty much]) and im playing with my air pistol (pellet gun) im trying to replace the co2 cartridge when i see a car on the road with three lights driving slowly. i go "crap, get down, freddy get down!" he hunches down, still on the phone with mom. the light shines over across the school building, and i say, freddy! get down! he's like yeah, uh huh. im like. then get down. danielle goes, hes not talking toyou, hes talking to his mom. he's now like, uhhuh, yeah, ok, i need to go, bye.
the cop pulls his car off the street and is shining his headlights and his spotlight over towards us now, but he still cant see us. i start putting the gun in my bag, and grabbing my cloak, and stuff it into the bag. i call to freddy, freddy! get the coke can (we were using to launch since the ground was to hard) and get my beating stick (over by the can). danielle's like. are you planning on running from the cops? i was like, yeah?! what else do you expect me to do? and the line as she noted (my life is flashing before my eyes) well, me and freddy were all about it, and the stuff was ready, so we wait for the cop to move.
he pulls his car onto the street again, and we tear to the fence and jump it. freddy goes first and leaves me and dani to fend for ourselves. by the time flip flop girl and combat boot boy get over the fence, he is already gone across the length of the basketball courts next to us. about 150 feet. we start walking and we see lights. freddy yells, get down! so we do. im like, dani, go down closer to the retention pond (because it was very slanted) so we do and we were able to run without being seen. then the tricke came because there is a little gutter that runs down the side of the basketball courts. well, it runs from the school entrance to where we were. guess who was at the school entrance shining his lights down the ditch?
the cop
so me and dani make it to where freddy is. im like, lets just go to your house (like a minute away) freddy says, my uncle lives on this street. we'll just hop in to his back yard. we're (me and dani) are like lets just go to the house, but as soon as the cop pulls out of the school, freddy hops the fence. me and dani are like, ok, so we hop it. im like, is there a way out? freddys like yeah, and goes to the back door and knocks. im thinkin, not what i meant! well, we knock for a minute and theres no answer. so freddy goes around to the side, opens the gate and looks out, and doesnt see anything, so walks towards the front door. as we round the corner to the front of the house, a cop car is pulling down the street in front of us. he stops behind a stopped car and im thinking, ok, he's not the same cop, then he puts it into reverse. we make it to the front door, freddy stashes the bag behing the pillar by the door, rings the doorbell and knocks. the cop stops in front of the door and opens his door so freddy goes over to meet him. the guy's like what are you doin coming out of that back yard. freddy says, oh, i live down the street, this is my uncles house, we just passed through the back because its a short cut. the cop was like, alright. he walks over and shines the light on me and dani, who are still standing by the door. (still no answer to the door knock and doorbell ring) he asks, were you over at the school settin off fireworks? freddy says his mind went, ok, do i lie or not,.... and replies, yes sir. then cop man does the whole, im not here to get anyone in trouble, i know its halloween and you want to have your fun, BUT YOU NEED TO STOP, I COULD TAKE YOU TO JAIL RIGHT NOW, YOU WERE TRESSPASSING, YOU NEED TO STOP, RIGHT NOW (all authoritative with raised voice) the whole time we're saying yes sir, you're right sir. well, he finally gets into his car. freddy comes back to the door and knocks again. the cop eventually drives off.
here comes the fun part of the story,
oh, wait, no, this post is too long anyways,
i guess you'll just have to wait until next time! and oh is it funny.
(on the next episode, of who wants to date a travel league bowler with an average of 178, what happens when the trio gets to freddys house and has to face his mom!? and as a special gift, a plot twist that will have you either cringing in horror, or laughing until you pee on yourself. (once again proving, its better to be pissed off, than to be pissed on, especially in public!) all this in more after a word from our sponsors!
justin
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| new game about to start, but first, practice and a steak |
[29 Oct 2004|01:01am] |
yeah, i cooked myself dinner. steak is good at anytime, let alone, um...1am so i finished my traffic school finally (for the speeding ticket) yeah, that was fun. i was talking to a friend of mine today and something they said was cool, but at the same time, as i thought of it, was a little unsettling. we were talking about a person they liked, and well, its funny, they like the person, but they dont want to date them, all they really want is to just hang out and get to know the person. anyways, person Q, my friend, and person Z, the one they like, have been conversing back and forth, talking late sometimes, talking long. well, person q went to go see person z at something and person z was like, hey, this is the person im going out with. so it was like HELO. anyawys, that was wierd and kinda upset the person, but if all person q really wanted to do was talk and hang out, should it matter? anyways, so yeah, then person z had talked to either person q or someone they know and found out that they didnt want to date. well, two days later they were talking to a friend of person q, person x, and x was like, so whats this about a significant other? what happend to person q? and z was like, well, i didnt think person q liked me and they didnt want to date me. x was like, um no, q did want to date you (which wasnt true, q wanted to hang out and be friends) and z was like, well if i knew that i wouldnt have gotten serious with (the other person) that conversation took place a couple days after the initial one where they found out that q didnt want to date (makes me wonder how many people z has on the side that they're talking to). anwyays. i was told about the conversation today, and i know that q has a thing for z, (obvious) but keeps saying that they dont want to date z (i kinda believe but i think that if Z said, hey you want to go out [as in date] they would say yes [which there is nothing wrong with]) the part that botherd me was when q said, well, i found out yesterday that i may still have a chance with z. then they told me about the whole, if i woulda known, i wouldnt have gotten serious with (other person) its unsettling because the way i thout of it was, (if i play my cards right, i can get z to dump (other person) because they're only with (other person) because they thought i was otherwise unavailable.) i dont like that because no matter how much i like a person, i would never want them to break up with someone for me. yeah it would be cool for me, but think of the pain it could cause the other person. i dont like that because i know wht its like to be broken up with for someone else. (pretty much if it can happen ina relationship, it has to me [negative that is, not positive]) which is why i dont really date. there are maybe two people i would even consider dating right now at all, let alone serious. one of them, is a great friend and if i ever did ask her out, i would have to be pretty darn sure that she liked me, because i would not give up our friendship for anything. yeah, i get the weird jitters sometimes thinking about her (the good ones) but i can deal with that. i just love being around her and love getting to spend time with her. whether its just sitting doing nothing, out in a group, or sitting talking (which when we do, we have to make sure there's not much else to do for a while because we take A WHILE. i just love how open and honest i can be with her. the worst part is, i kinda liked her when we met, but it was mostly a hey shes cute thing (as i didnt know her) and then i started to like her more, but we grew as friends. well, come to find out later, after she's already talking to someone else, she ws thinking the same thing about me, but she got sidetracked. anyways, about 3 months into her dating another person, thats when i started to realize that she was someone i could see myself with. she was very much the kind of person i want God to give me when he tells me its time to be involved again. she has a close relationship with God, she's very active in church. and though we have our differences in opinions and beliefs in some areas, we never have really argued about it, just discussed our differences and accepted them. anwyays, she means a lot to me, and im pretty sure she knows that i like her, but hopefully she knows how much i love her as a friend. man, im rambling pretty good here arent i? anyways, to the person, hopefully after this entry, if not before, you've realized who you are, and you now know just know how much you mean to me.
love pease and all thats greasy (come eat at bennigans! and tip me lots of money! or dont come to bennigans, and just give me lots of money!)
justin
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| final score 145 ~ new game, first practice |
[25 Oct 2004|01:15am] |
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yeah i know, i havent written in....ok. forever. nor have i read anything. i havent had much time. i've been taking an online college algebra class and that has been taking up most of my time when i get online, and i really dont get much of a chance to be online. im taking 7 classes, for those who dont know. algebra, intro to theater arts, music theory, sight singing and ear training, chorus, vocal ensemble (musical theater), applied music (voice lessons) and recital attendance. recital doesnt count as a class though since we have to go see things, and we dont have a claSS time. anyways, yeah, the reason i say musical theater after vocal ensemble, we're doing the play, GODSPELL. its going really good. on t, th, and fr, i go straight from play practice to work, and wednesdays is pretty much the only time that i have off until saturday night, and then sunday afternoon. the rest of the time is filled up with church, work, and of course, BOWLING!! im on the travel team too!!! so that means bowling twice on saturdays. anyways, yeah, life has been busy. and like always, if you want to get a hold of me, the best way is by calling or the infamous email! i check that almost everytime i get online, and i have to get on once a week at least for school. so, email away!!! santinomichelangelorodrigochacon@yahoo.com if yo udo happen to catch me online, it will be sanmichrodchacon but i think everyone that reads this already knows that or sees me once a week. anwyays, i will try to stay updated, but as far as reading everone elses, i dont know if i will have time to until after i get done with my algebra class, or at the very earliest, when i get done with my play. (the 14 of november is the last show) anyways, i am off to laa laa land. sleep tight everyone!
pease mount and sugarloaf the bonzi juice!
justin
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[20 Aug 2004|01:07am] |
yeah, serving is ok. on tuesday i made $50 but that was only 11% of my sales. so not very good. wednesday was ok. i slept. then went out to baylife. took stacie with me. she seemed to like it. went to bennigans after. it was ok. then came home. was gonna talk to amanda, but she was already off line. oh yeah, me stacie and taneha stayed at bennigans until around 1 talking. it was fun. dont tell my parents because i dont know if they realize it or not, but i didnt get home until 145, almost two hours after curfew. then thursday, today, slept, went to work and served. only made like 30 something. which % wise was about the same as tuesday. oh well. i'll get better money eventually. but yeah, the main point of this entry is...
THIS WAY UP
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| frame 10 second ball, strike |
[17 Aug 2004|02:06pm] |
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so, everyone i know needs to come to bennigans tonight and ask for me. why you ask? because tonight is my first night serving! so everyone better come and ask for me and give me lots of money, because im poor and i like company and such and such. so yeah, just come see me!
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[10 Aug 2004|04:12pm] |
i forgot, my schedule for the week starting today
tues~ school 1130-230 work 530-probably 12
wed.~ work 1015-like 2 (server training) night~church
thurs~ work 5-10 host, 10-close (server train)
friday~ work 1130-sometime, (server train) work 6-10 togo
sat.~ maybe work for a friend in daytime, night-go out with gang for sherms bday
yeah, so, stike because...i server train!! that means you can all come and see me and give me big tips soon! orjsut come on friday nights like i've been trying to get you people to do, while im on to go's come on, remember, i bring it to your car! oh well.
pease mount and sugarloaf the bonzi juice
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yeah. my english class (the last of my summer) ended today, so that was good. the gutter, is that it only lasted 6 weeks and i didnt get any #'s! i think if i had one more week i couldve gotten atleast one. oh well. gutter that one. anyways i was told to write short posts. well, you shouldve seen the private entry i wrote. that was short. butyeah, i'll try to keep em shorter and just write more. so yeah, thatwas the end of my english class. on the other hand. went to pay my ticket yesterday. yeah. if you ever have to pay a ticket and you opt to take the traffic course, just take a lot of money with you to the place. this is what happened to me. none of which i knew before hand, and could sue them for if i had the money for a lawyer. ok, 1) there is a $6 fee if you opt to take the class that neither the cop or the site for the class tells you. 2)you dont save 18% "its around 18 but its not exactly 18% 3) the cop who gave me the ticket on July 12th! gave me the wrong pricing. apparently the price went up on july 1, and according to the lady that told me this stuff, a lot of cops forget that they went up and dont tell people the right rates. i would have fought the thing but i was tired and didnt feel like it. i would take it to court for 1)false advertisement on part of the county and the traffic school (the 18%thing) and 2)falsifying an official government document because if i would have written down anything that was wrong, i could go to jail. the cop wrote down the wrong ticket price and aint nothin gonna happen. so unless you know a lawyer that will work for free, im out of luck. anyways, yeah, but today will be ok. i may work for a friend on saturday during theday, i dont know yet. it will mean more money for me, plus even more hours. so i dont know.
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[07 Aug 2004|12:56am] |
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yeah, didnt end up paying my ticket today. i got busy talking to a friend online, and updating my journal, so i didnt leave my house until 4, didnt get done at the bank until 445, and by the time i got gas it was after 5. yeah, i had to be at work at 6, so now i have to find out when they are open because i have to pay my ticket by wednesday. anyways back to the strike. work was good today. i made 16 dollares in cash tips and another 10 something in charge tips. on togo's no less! that is good for a 4 hour shift on togo's. especially since i didnt really have that many to go's. so. best part, i do my server training all next week! go me! tuesday is my last day of school, so wed. i train as an opener. thursday i train closing, and friday is a daytime just in general shift. so i will have a good next paycheck from training and the extra hours. the cool thing is i get to train on wednesday with my favorite, Jessica Olivio! (no i am not just saying she's my favorite and the love of my life and the passion for my existence just because she told me "hey i read your journal and you havent said anything about how much you love me.") jess is great. the only thing i dont like about her (other than the fact that she wont go out with me...[j/k jess, i know you love me, otherwise you wouldnt make me pictures! you have to see them, i told you i hang them in my room] anyways, yeah, i get to train with her wednesday. i wonder if she will leave a note for me now! (please?) i want a note from you too jess imhof, my friend who ran away to s.c. and a real one that applies to the post this time! so, yeah, todays post #2 was a strike. hopefully my parents will let me go to cosmic bowling tomorrow with sherm and the gang. if not, i'll be sad. well, times a wastin and i have games to play on the compy 3something.
pease mount and sugarloaf the bonzi juice
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oh yeah, i forgot, I LOVE COKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im gonna write a song one day and post it here.
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[06 Aug 2004|02:06pm] |
ok, so lets recap whats happened in the last time since i posted (july 29). ok
july 30~work, jess left :( she said i wasnt allowed to come to her house before they left. i was supposed to start training (to be a server)this week, but i didnt because our managers at bennigans are stupid and dont know how to communicate. work was ok, made like $8 in tips doing togos. ::side note, come visit me on friday nights while i do togos and come give me big tips! im poor! and i like the company::
july 31~ parents left a note yesterday saying that we needed to plan our weekends around our chores (in simple terms. do them) well, i didnt because i was out most of the day in preparation for randys (my bro) surprise party that laci (his girl) was throwing for him. went to best buy and bennigans to get him girf cards. while at bennigans, met out new manager, and talked to the GM about my not being on the server training sheet. he said he would put me on the schedule for next week when he approved them. then went and got my friend jen, and went to the party ::side note, jen's style has changed a lot since i saw her like a year ago, shes still a sweetie though:: his party went well. went home, slept.
aug 1~ church, was late for sunday school, but still there for most of it. atleast i show up (freddY) went out to lunch for randys bday to sonny's. i never really have liked thier bbq anything. so, after that, went home, dont remember what i did, but i went to danis's church to watch her get baptised. stayed for the sermon. oh yeah, my friend stacie went with me. and she went to life group with me afterwards. she has to come back this week too, because she wants to but more importantly because she hasnt finished her surprise! (if you wanna know, come to lifegroup. we have three surprises for you, and ones big)then i took her home, came home, watched some tv and went to bed.
aug 2~ school first. that was good. we talked about our final some. its gonna be easy because i paid attention the whole time i was there and only missed two classes. so after that, i came home, made a conclusion for my research paper for english, and went to work. i got screwed out of my being first cut (again) so i had to stay late. noticed i again was not going to be server training. i was on the server schedule though, just not with any days next to my name. so at this point i am really mad because the gm told me he would work around my schedule to have me trained and that i would be done in three days rather than five (bc im good like that and thats all i need). so i was ready to quit. then i find out that our gm is going on vacation for atleast a week, and it may be two. so i just leave him a note asking about my server training so he would see it when he came in tuesday morning. went home, went to bed.
aug 3~ went to school (english) got the second part of my research paper back, got a b on it (which makes two b's so far on the research paper) we started the poetry and drama unit. poetry took all of twenty minutes, and then we went on to my favorite author, can you guess who? who said it? yes, william shakespeare of stratford on avon. so we talked about him and about hamlet which we are going to read and watch in class. went to work, actually got cut like i was supposed to, but still didnt get cut until late for being there at five. one of the girls (vanessa) called in with a family emergency and said she would call when she was able to come. well she didnt. so me and wita ran everything from 5 until about 830-9 by ourselves. which was ok, we only called because we didnt want to have to rush all night, that and neither one of us wanted to close. (at one point we were running 20 something tables by ourselves. we're supposed to have like 7 per host.) anways, went home, did homework for music theory. went to bed.
aug 4~ went to school, didnt learn anything. talked about our exam which will be easy. sang some, went away. came home and started my traffic course. heard my dad and brother complain about the dishes (dont get me started) told them the ones in the dishwasher were clean, they didnt listen, complained some more, so i told them like five times and they still didnt acknowledge that they were paying attention. yes i know they heard me. anyways, went to work to get tipshare bc im broke ::side note, i got my dance pads for ddr! yes!:: one of the managers said he needed to talk to me about why i wasnt on the server training schedule, didnt end up talking because he had to leave for dinner reservations, but said to come in early on thursday. so i went to kings, talked to the youth paster a little about my paperwork and why i havent turned it in, helped him out with some tech stuff, played a little guitar (by thati mean i know five chords G, C2, D, e(minor), and A). then went to baylife. after that, talked to taneya or however you spell it (she'll forgive me anyways) her friend heather and nelson. we talked until after 11. then i went home and did homework until 230 for english. (ended up gettin a double a on it)
aug5~ woke up to the sound of people cutting down tree limbs in my yard. guess what trees they were trimming? thats right, the two right by my bedroom! and at 8 in the morning! (yeah i know, you people in high school were already in first period by then, well im in college, my day doesnt start until 9! and thats just when i wake up, not my first class!) so went to english, watched the first two and a half acts of hamlet. joined one of the conversations where a girl said that all guys are either psycho obsessive or cheat on you. (thats why i had to join) and i was like, what did you say about guys and dating? she was all, they either cheat or are psychos. so i was all, well, none ofmy g/fs have called me psycho, and i have never cheated on one, nor plan to. and she was, so you dont get mad if your gf has guy friends, and i was all no. so she was, what about if she wanted to wear a skirt, and i said, even better, and she was, even if you're not around, and then phil, the guy iwas sitting next to was all, you do have that psycho kind of a look toyou. and i was like, naww, justins not a psychopath. anways, class ended, went to work, talked to jim, told him what matt told me, he said what tiffany said (the girl that makes the server schedule) i was all, thats bullcrap because the GM said i was gonna train, she doesnt have a right to not put me on the schedule at all, i can do atleast one day a week. so, we talked about school, found out i dont have it next wed thur or fri, so sometime in those three days we're gonna train me. we figure that out tonight. got screwed on my cut again because wita called out. i knew she was going to soon, but she said she was gonna call out on next tuesday, not this thursday. so i was sad. they called in nicol who worked that morning, so she was a double and first out, so i got stuck being the last one out before the closer, so i got out at like 12. no tanning for me. i think God is trying to tell me something. its either quit bennigans or dont tan at lifestyles, i dontknow which one though....
aug. 6~ today! woke up, ate pizza rolls. watched tv, found out last night when i got home that my mom took my ps2 and is holdingit randsom until i go my chores and keep them done (which all i will say is crap because i play that maybe once a week) so, i did the dishes, and will be leaving as soon as im done with this post to go to the place in tampa off of florida to pay my ticket. so, then im off to work! come visit me at to gos and give me lots of money!
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today is a special day. it is my friend and ex g/f Kristin's 17th bday! hooray! so every body join me in singing to her. "happy birthday to you....happy birthday to you...happy biiiiiirth day, dear krisin, haaapy biiiirthdaaay tooooooo youuuuuuuuu!" now in the style of bennigans! "happy happy birthday, on this your special day, happy happy birthday, that's why we're here today, HEY! happy happy birthday, may all your dreams come true (me in the back shouts TRUE! after everone else b/c thats my thing) happy happy birthday from bennigans to you! HEY!" yeah, i know you and you come into bennigans on your bday, and i will do that for you. and we even give you a brownie bottom pie! yum! so, happy bday kristin! loves ya sweetie!
love always,
your babe, justin
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yeah, randys party is saturday, and i talked to my friend jennifer today, she said she might be able to go with me to it! yay! (shes a real sweetheart. we didnt get to talk for a few months b/c of 1] i was in school and 2] she moved so i didnt have her # to call her back. but now we've been talking so its all good. but yeah, did i mention that she's also pretty gorgeous? i know thats repeditive but its worth saying twice! no thats not the only reason i like her dani) anyways, yeah, i have to do a stupid research paper, only problem is i dont know what the third prong will be. so yeah, i guess i'll just have to do the other two first, and then hope i get a third one that pops into my head. anyways, thats enough for now.
btw, according to the definition that sean posted, it looks like quixotic is a good word for me! now you have a new one that sounds cool but guess what? thats right, i have no clue what it is.
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